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I’m in a quandary over a situation in my marriage. When my husband was in college he had a girlfriend and eventually became engaged. After a year of engagement, she found someone else and they broke up. I knew about her but never felt threatened by their relationship.
We were sealed in the temple fifty-five years ago, we have six children, and have had a good life together. I found out recently that this ex-girlfriend has been emailing him, off and on, for the past two years.
My husband was recently hospitalized and I came across an email he had sent to her expressing that he still had feelings for her and that he thinks about her and wishes that he could hold her tight and just talk about old times.
Needless to say, I was devastated.
I confronted him and he said I’m “making a mountain out of a mole hill” and told me to “get over it!” It is affecting our once loving relationship and I’m very confused and depressed.
What would you suggest we do to put this behind us? Oh, and by the way, she is still emailing him as of yesterday.
First of all, please know that you’re not overreacting to the discovery of your husband’s secret relationship with his ex-girlfriend. Even though he won’t admit it to you, he has to know this relationship with his ex-girlfriend is crossing a line. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have kept it a secret. You have some important decisions to make now that you know this information. Let’s sort through your options.
It’s important to not be derailed by his defensiveness and denial. Even though he may have an explanation for why he’s sharing these messages with his ex-girlfriend, there aren’t two sides of the story. There is one truth: He’s exchanging love letters with another woman. You can have confidence, as Jacob taught in the Book of Mormon, that you are seeing things “as they really are.”[i] This assurance is critical when you’re facing deception. It will help you hold your ground and demand an acknowledgement of the truth.
In my experience, most people struggle to face the reality of their mistakes and turn to blame, hiding, and distraction to provide relief from the crushing guilt. Our first parents, Adam and Eve, found themselves hiding and excusing their behaviors when they were found naked in the Garden of Eden.[ii] Even though it’s a natural reflex to hide and excuse our mistakes, we can follow Heavenly Father’s example of expecting our loved one to come out hiding. Stand your ground, keep calling out the truth, and don’t be fooled by the blame and defensiveness.
You can let him know that this actually is a “mountain” and him treating it like a “molehill” is going to keep damaging the relationship. Don’t ignore this active emotional affair. It’s one thing to forgive mistakes from the past that have been resolved, but it’s another to ignore an active betrayal that is destroying the fabric of your marriage. If he won’t stop the behavior and work with you to repair the damage he’s caused, then you need to decide how you’re going to find safety.
Please recognize that he’s not only blaming and defensive, but he’s also refusing to stop his communication with her. Since this line continues to be crossed in your marriage, you have to decide how you’re going to respond to his choice to continue talking to her. It’s important to realize that you’re not powerless to act in your own behalf. Of course, you don’t want to face the terrible options you’ve been handed, but they are options, nonetheless. Your sanity depends on you knowing and trusting that you have options to protect yourself. You might find yourself sleeping in a different room or asking him to leave. If your requests for fidelity to this marriage continue to be ignored, you need to decide what you need to do to protect your dignity.
It’s important to seek support from someone who can help you understand your best options. Don’t be afraid to speak to your bishop for personal support. Find a therapist who specializes in working with infidelity and betrayal trauma so they can help you stay in reality and confront the seriousness of his actions. Consider attending a betrayed partner support group through Family Services. Things can’t stay the same, as he’s fundamentally altered the foundation of your marriage.
Geoff will answer a new family and relationship question every Friday. You can email your question to him at [email protected]
About the Author
Geoff Steurer is a licensed marriage and family therapist in St. George, Utah. He specializes in working with couples, pornography/sexual addiction, betrayal trauma, and infidelity. He is the founder of LifeStar of St. George, Utah (www.lifestarstgeorge.com) and Alliant Counseling and Education (www.alliantcounseling.com). Geoff is the co-author of “Love You, Hate the Porn: Healing a Relationship Damaged by Virtual Infidelity” and creates online relationship courses available on his website www.geoffsteurer.com. He hosts the Illuminate Podcast and has created the Loving Marriage educational vlog on YouTube with his wife. He earned degrees from Brigham Young University and Auburn University. He is married to Jody Young Steurer and they are the parents of four children.
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[i] Jacob 4:13
[ii] Moses 4:14-19
AnaNovember 11, 2019
Eve is right on. Expose this emotional affair. Affairs thrive in secrecy and in fantasy-land. Expose it to your children, your family, your husband's family, all your friends, your bishop, the ex-girlfriends husband, her children, her family and friends. (You can get all the contacts from Facebook.) You don't do this to be vindictive. But it needs to be exposed to quicken the natural death of it. You need their help to end it, and their love and support of you during this crisis. You and your husband's family and friends need to encourage him to do the right thing and END THIS NOW. And the ex-girlfriend's family and friends need to encourage her to END THIS NOW. Expose, expose, expose. That's where you need to start. After that, ZERO contact with that woman ever again, full transparency on his part and working on the repair of your marriage. Good luck.
tony fullerOctober 13, 2019
GTO is the only commenter that hit the nail on the head. old flames change in 55+ years. even if photos have been exchanged, they may not tell the current truth.