The first thing that I noticed was that my daughter Amber’s car was not in its normal place next to mine in the garage. A fear gripped my gut. You see, my daughter Amber was severely, severely bipolar. For the past 8 years she had lived in and out of mental institutions. During that time, she had attempted to kill herself on at least 30 different occasions. We had been blessed by God time after time to be able to narrowly save her life. But this morning I felt the panic rising in my throat.
Podcast
How I Know — How Could I Have Ever Known What Would Come of My Daughter’s Suicide?
By Scot and Maurine Proctor
· January 8, 2023
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AnonymousJanuary 10, 2023
I really enjoyed this podcast and it was exactly what I needed to hear after a few hard years. In the past few years I have wondered if God was there or if He had forgotten about me. Hearing the honesty and rawness of emotion in this podcast reminded me that sometimes you just have to keep pushing through dark times to understand the meaning behind it. Thanks for sharing Becky!